There I sat under my favorite oak tree at Mission Trails on a beautiful, warm, and lightly windy fall morning – my initial goal was to get out of the house and exercise, so I did – I worked up a sweat walking all around and finally plunked myself under a great tree to ponder what to write about – I had never taken this long to figure it out – my mind was searching for what seemed much longer than it should be. Then the random acts of spirit began to talk to me – and this is what showed itself to me in my sacred silence, NOISE! – “Emmy!-Emmy!-Emmy!- Come here! Where are you?”
Someone was calling out from a distance – this person seemed pretty perturbed that Emmy would take off and go so far away. And then Emmy showed up in front of me. A sweet dog that looked like a fox. She looked right into my eyes like she was on a mission to meet me. So I took a moment, tuning into her eyes and asked, “What’s the message, Emmy?” –
I heard, “You lie to yourself.”
“Yeah, you know that there’s nothing more wonderful, nothing more sacred, nothing more interesting than the present moment right here right now.” Then Emmy left to go meet her family.
Hmmmm – I thought about it for a moment. For most of my life I have not accepted the truth of my power, the presence within me and all around me, in each present moment. Thinking that I am present when I’m not IS a lie.
Now the wind began to blow through the trees, moving them and making sounds as if to say, – “Shhhhhh … Dummmmmmmy … This powerful presence is here with you always and we are one with you.”
I caught a chill there, disciplined by nature. So I got up to get back in the sun on the trail so that I could see and hear what else spirit was trying to tell me. And then it occurred to me: Nothing is trying to tell me anything. It’s me trying too hard as usual. Thinking that life has to always be hard. I have to over-try to make something happen for myself. All my wants and needs can only manifest through trying. There is a fine line between trying and BEing. When we start to BE, we feel wonderful and we begin to manifest by being present and recognizing abundance in the moment. Once I notice the abundance that’s there in front of me, I have to try to create again. The trap of trying! So, then in front of me on the trail are hundreds of rocks making it really hard to figure out where the trail is. I tripped over a rock and almost fell. It was then that spirit reminded me, “Choose! – and while you’re choosing, pay attention to what’s in front of you.”
So I looked in front of me, to the sides of me, to my backside all around and up! – And what I discovered was that I was in the middle of a panorama that took my breath away and filled me with joy.
As I continued along the path, I came upon a bridge with a sign nearby displaying the words, – “Life and Death.” It was a message about forest fires, how they affect the trees and the animals there, and how nature rebirths itself and sustains itself again – the very bottom of the sign had a quote I had never noticed there before. It said,
“For certain is death for the born and certain is birth for the dead; therefor over the inevitable thou shouldest not grieve.” –Bhagavad-Gita
Wow! I walked that trail many times before yet never saw that small writing at the bottom of the sign. The bridge told me, simply put, “I join the two sides together.” I thought immediately of my mother’s recent passing this year – although terribly confusing and painful to lose her physically, I feel her close-by in spirit in a comforting way. My thoughts moved to the pain of trying – I was ready to end this pattern and allow the death of it. “I’m sure there’s comfort on the other side of that as well,”- I thought.
Further on the path, the words “Presence-BEing-Creating” came to me in that way and in that order. “I can’t create unless I’m present.”
I was taken aback by a funny looking tree all slumped over, partially alive, but seemingly dead. I thought to myself, “Geez, I feel that way often. Why would we be so alive and then act dead at the same time? Why not live out presently what’s being shown to us, absorb every moment with all the love we have and get everything out of our creation rather than shirking it off or doubting what is in front of us?” – I knew in that moment that I’m doing life in fast-forward, hoping for better ahead in the future. But I also realized that in many ways I have a slow way of doing life, too, looking back so often. I’ve acquired a lot of knowledge along the way and I have a lot to share. So I walked on with my shoulders back and my eyes open. No need to slouch like that tree.
These spiritual messages that Mother Nature gave me filled me up 100%. Spirit, my Higher Self, God, Goddess, the Universe, the Cosmos are supporting me 100%! – Everything I need is right here, right now, currently present in the make-up of my life. I am blessed and so are you. Pay attention: You’re being spoken to. –
Thanks, Emmy. You put me on an intuitive course for success.
Wendy Chaffin
November 2015
